Week 1- Vision 9 week challenge

So week one is done and dusted, I have lost 1kg in the first week. Feeling ready for this challenge and know I where I need to make room for improvment - being organised cooking up my meals on sunday- shopping on saturday- as Kate calls it the Shop and Chop.
I am doing what I can this week, dont feel much like eating as my friend Pia whom  I saw on Friday night just gone decided she needed to leave this world- Im going to miss you girl, I dont even know what I say, im in utter shock and going through the motions of the day. I received the call on Monday night and I didnt sleep a wink- I got up out of bed and went straight to the Gym and found comfort in my boxing with Kate for an hour. Im going to do this, and I havent reached for foods in my moments of pain and upset like I used to.  Pia wouldnt want me to do that and go back to old ways. I love her and I am fighting on and going to get to where I want to be to live my life as the best version of myself.

Last week was probably the most successful training week I have had to date. I worked hard and pushed myself in each session. Saturday Boxing class was challenging and I felt such a sense of achiement after doing it. 

I went to the FitX expo to support Kate in her figure model comp and she did well comming 3rd place :) it was very inspiring and I have picked up new meal ideas and got alot out of it.
WELL DONE KATE - awesome effort ...
Something I did on the weekend was look at myelf in the mirror and accpet how far I have come and how far I have to go. Something I have done is embrace the 35kgs I have still to loose. I have shed the first 50 and I am ready to get to my goal weight.
I love my body I am greatful for my health, I am ready to be the best version of myself.

.......Off and Running

Went to Boxing class first thing this morning. I was up at 5am preparing my 5 meals for the day and deciding what I would wear to my day job so that when I got back from class I could run in,quickly get ready  and make my way to the office. The key to all of this routine is being organised. I literally work 9-5 I sleep 9 to 5, I cook and prepare meals on the weekends, I train 6 days a week for an hour, 2 of these sessions is weights training and 4 cardio sessions. on the days I weight train I also include walking. I walk my dog each day for at least 20 minutes also as he needs it and its the highlight of his day and extra exercise for me on top of my classes.  So good to be back in the routine of Body Combat, Attack, Jam and Zumba. I love the classes so much- I feel amazing after all of them.   Last night the outdoor session with the Vision Personal Trainers had me beat. It was a new way to train and boy did I sweat and I sure felt it.

This week is my 4th week at Vision and tomorrow morning is weigh in. ( I will be posting weight updates when I feel ready to do so)
On week 9 Kate will be taking more photos of me, and I cannot wait to have them all together from the start to the finish product of the real me at the end of this incredible journey.

I wont lie, today I feel physically and a tad emotionally tired but I know I will have a nice relaxing evening ahead of me, filled with self care and an early night to be up for my early session with Kate in the AM. Last week I pushed 210kgs on my leg press- that is a personal record for me. I am proud of what I have achieved so far and I know where I am going and nothing is going to get in my way.

 

By the way, I've entered the 9 week Weight Loss challenge at Vision Personal Training Brighton- I think I might just have this one in the Bag.... I'll keep you posted with pics, stats and my progress- kick off on March 4th.............

My Vision.....

On the 1st February 2013 I decided to Join Vision Personal Training Brighton. Having returned from what was an amazing experience with Shirley Smith ( http://www.setyourselffree.com.au/) in January and facing my deepest fears taking myself on in her 12 day recovery program, I have decided I cannot get to goal weight alone and I want more support.

Kate had been wanting to work with me for sometime, and being on this journey with her is not just utilising a trainer in a gym like I have experienced before. In my expereince with Vision and working with Kate over the last month, her knowledge on nutrition has been the number one key to change for me. this along with regular sleeping paterns, no alcohol/drugs, measure high impact vs moderate to low impact cardio sessions each week and now I am enjoying weight training for the first time ever.

NO MORE CRASH DIETS FOR ME- this is about my new healthy lifestyle.

At the end of 2011 I did the HCG diet and starved myself - I was weak, eating only 500 calories per day and not being abl to excercise- I honestly do not see how this is sustainable now, now that I wake up early wanting to hit the gym and it being the best part of my day. I lost 12 Kilos in 4 weeks on teh HCG plan, with the injections, however like all these crazy crash diets I gained that weight on again and more.
What I learnt it was not sustainable and not maintainable.  I have seen others loose alot of weight on it also but then they too gain it again. its not the right way to do it. its about lifestyle change and once you have that click moment in the brain you are able to do anything I beleive. I know this year I am going to get to my goal and become a qualified Body Combat instructor.

My addictions also played a role in why I gained the weight again ( let me make it clear to you all - an addiction is something that enables you to mood-alter) gives you a "hit" makes you feel better.
When I moved into my own place, I was terrified, highly anxious, not sleeping, partying in an out of control way and not at all looking after myself.
The biggest thing I learnt in Sydney with Shirley was that I can be alone, that I am all that I need, that I am not a product of my childhood years 0-7.
I am a functional adult and I can take things a day at the time and be the amazing woman I am.

I feel that everything I have done to get to this point has been worth it through. I mean I loved the Michelle Bridges Body Transormation last year and I lost about 12 kilos in the 12 weeks.  The structure of the eating plan and excersise plan kept me on track. However the biggest change ever for me was the work I have done on the 12 day recovery program with Shirley. That 12 days has changed my life forever. I never thought it would be possible for me to climb poles - I used to be afraid of heights- I was almost afraid of everything when I look back.  afraid of being alone, afraid of not succeeding, now I know I can achieve  anything because I am a mind, not just a body. 

I am learning about the macronutrients in foods and the education and support I receive from Kate and the other trainers and members at Vision is just priceless. I feel heard and understood when I talk about my eating disorder and my fears of foods and how my family of origion issues had been holding me back in my adult life.  There is so much peace in knowing and believe you are all that you need. I am stronger and capable and you know what I am worth it. I am a determinded woman and I knwo where I am going.  When I am at goal weight, I will be a body combat instructor, I will wear the clothes I feel fabulous in, I will be my true self.

I no longer need to carry this weight around as protection. I realease it with love and appreciation and I am so excited for what is ahead of me.  This is my time, this is my year and im ready willing and able.

 I climbed to be free of caretaking others, to live my life for me, and know I know I can get to goal weight. WHAT A LIGHT BULB MOMENT....

This is me almost at the top of the pole !!!

One day at the time- Week 8

So coming into week 8 of Round 2 2012, I have decided to start to collect a selection of before pics to remind myself how far I have already come. I am also going to use these as motivation as I am never going back. I am officially 50.2kilos down and I need to acknowledge my achievement and push on to put this battle to rest once and for all. 


Today I went into the gym and enjoyed my Combat class and then decided to test myself on the 1km fitness test. I have improved my time by 2.6minutes. I am so excited. I got home and said to Vik, "Hun lets book ourselves into some Fun Runs for the end of this year. I am looking forward to summer more than ever. I am pumped to be training and improving on my jogging in the spring/ summer this year. CANT WAIT!


The last 3 weeks have been a bit up and down. I have had a cold/flu which I was not able to train for 4 days due to fever so that was frustrating, and I felt stressed but had to let it go. The positive here was that I missed my training SO much! 


I think the best thing I have learnt on the 12WBT this round is my awareness around my eating and actually being conscious and concerned about what I fuel my body with.
I am for the first time in my life treating food as an energy source and nothing else. I am not using food to solve my problems. I am not using it as an emotional band-aide. I no longer eat if I am bored, or upset. I am free of that horrible cycle I would get myself stuck in. I feel in control and powerful. 
I can honestly say, my favourite part of the day is when I am training. I feel so much stronger and fitter already.


Thank you Vikki for showing me I can, and thank you Michelle for your inspiration, your amazing program and being who you are. 


I AM ON MY WAY- AND I AM NEVER GOING BACK!


much love........
Hayley x

2006

2007

                            

 

Vikki and I in Bali 2009- Lost already around 20-25 kilos.

 

2009

FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY

What a day, this morning I woke up filled with nerves. I was highly anxious about starting my Fitness Qualification. I had to be in Richmond at 9.30am.  I got myself ready left the house and stopped at a favourite cafe for a piccolo coffee on the way. 


I got to Brighton and quickly turned my car around. I was dis-empowered by fear. Fear of being judged and assessed when I walked into the class. I have been running a major story that everyone was going to be skinny and fit and I would be judged by all as if I were not good enough to be qualified in the Fitness Industry. 


Tears streaming down my face I quickly drove back to Bayside Fitness First and smashed out a Body Combat class. 
To my surprise a lady turned to speak to me and said I always see you in the class you remind me of my friend, I said oh really, nice ot meet you I am Hayley. Then another lady said I knew it was you, one of my clients from my social work job  was in the class- we had a great chat and she was very encouraging and helped me to see a few things for myself. 
Great class and so nice to speak to 2 lovely ladies. I went onto the treadmill to complete my fitness test for the end of week four- 12WBT- I was able to jog- YES- jog 1k and I beat my last Walking attempt by just under 2 minutes!
I felt pretty proud with knowing I have increased my fitness, I got into my car to see the missed calls from WYN Fitness. I called them and explained I was not ready, that I had a panic attack and turned the car around while on my way. He said, Hayley I want you here, its not too late, go home shower and get yourself ready the next class starts at 1pm.  He stood for me, said I will wait for you and walk you into the class. Ill even set you up a little table so you can sit at the back and wont have to disrupt anyone in the seating arrangement. 


WIth this conversation I felt relieved knowing he knows my history and understood what my fears were. 


I felt the fear and did it anyway! He met me out the front, we went through the paperwork and he walked me into the class and showed me my table at the back and I introduced myself to my class mates and our teacher. I found I was able to share my knowledge of diets and my past history was actually valuable to the class. 


Anything is possible! I will graduate on the 17th January 2013, The future excites me!


Right now Im exhausted and glad to be home to relax this evening with Vik & Wilson....
ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND ALL- 


Lots of love


H xx

I EXERCISE BECAUSE IT   IS PART OF WHO I AM

Week 2

12WBT- WEEK 2

Hi all- so here we are at week 2 and its weigh in day! wait for it...

WEIGHED IN TODAY AT 107.4Kgs! 

 Feeling good overall. I feel as though my body is recovering quicker from the training. I am so proud that I managed to do a double class last Saturday for my first attempt at a SSS ( Super Saturday Session). WOOOOOO! amazing feeling! Burnt 1065 Calories!! Body Combat followed by a freestyle Step Class.

Last night I had a lovely session with my natropath Sheryl, my body is feeling so much better for it today. I need to get myself some more Epsom salts and treating myself to a bath at least once a week. I feel very strong on the program and I have stuck to it 100%, I feel inspired and committed to what I am out to achieve and know where I am headed. I can see my first mini goal of 99kgs right in front of me- I'm almost in reach of it.

Ill keep this short and sweet, have a great hump day all!

Body Combat tonight and a Weights Circuit to follow.

Preparation is Key to success in this program- this isn't a diet, this is a lifestyle, and gym is a way of life.

PS. I jogged for the first time on Monday! another achievement! I was so excited to call vik and say hey honey I get it, you fall into a rhythm and hold your core strong and you just go for it... she said back to me- Honey listen to you, Well Done! "

Just so happy and love this way of life!

Get Up

Get Organised

Be Accountable

ONE DAY AT THE TIME!!!!!

12WBT DAY ONE....

Hi everyone- so today was kick off and I am off to a strong start.  Prepared food yesterday, it was a team effort from myself and Vikki however we have prepared a delicious pumpkin soup, made an oven bake chicken dish & Panang chicken curry. Ill have to remember to pop some photos up of some of these amazing low calorie recipes I am making... I promise I will do! 


I was not having the best of weekends the one just gone. I was feeling quite irritated and anxious. On sunday afternoon my back went into some kind of painful spasm and I wasn't able to do body attack tonight as it feels very tender and I don't want to do more damage. ( about 3 months ago I had a nasty back injury from a fall) So I've booked with my oesteo to have a back adjustment.
Thankfully Im feeling slightly better so skipping body attack tonight and stretching was the best option. I have body Pump tomorrow night and looking forward to that already. 
I's so true that it only takes a month to get into the swing of loving and needing your excercise. I crave it and that is half the battle won. 
Through the 12WBT pre-season I have been training 4 days per week and now Im more than ready to build that to 6 days and I already am beginning to feel the major benefits. I feel happier, I'm sleeping better, I am not as tired. 
I must admit I am going through alot of spaces, doubt, frustration,anger, scarred. 


I have a big challenge ahead of me, but its one day at the time, and if I keep going like I have today I will be alright and I know I will get there. This is going to to be the biggest test of my patience as I want to be there now. I want to be up there taking classes and inspiring others. If I can do this people, anyone can do anything they want. 
This is the challenge of my lifetime and I am committed to taking myself on. I have wondered how many people have read this and thought why is she doing this- the truth is the more you share, and enrol others in your possibility, you are then owning your commitment, and then it will become your reality. 
I am not ashamed anymore, I am scarred YES, hell yes I am scarred but I am pushing through the fear and not listening to that voice that likes to go off now and then. 
I am committed, I am doing this and I can feel what it will feel like when I am there. 
I drive my car playing my favourite combat / attack tracks and visualise when I am up there as a Les Mills instructor. That feeling is all I need to know. That feeling motivates me to make the right choice and to push myself harder when I train. 
I can do this and I love how empowered I feel for having shared with many people my deepest fears, my life long struggle with myself.


Thanks for showing me love & support, It means the world to me right now. 

Surrounding yourself with positive people whom influence and inspire you to be your personal best is so important and thankyou to everyone whom has shown me this in the last 4 weeks. I cant wait to give this back to others one day. I want to be there to help anyone who has struggled the way I have as a child, teenager and adult.  Its no way to live life- and Im going to help others. 


Love to all
H


PS. Im writing on here as I feel I need to really, perhaps I will do another quick post on weigh in day wednesday. 


Night x